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jadi begini ceritanya…

dua hari ini semangatku terbakar setelah seorang kawan kuliah ngajak, “yuk kita kuliah lagi”. Sebelum2 ini aku udah sering ngajak dia, mencoba ignite the fire inside her but to no avail. And two days ago she called me, challenged me to pursue higher education. I was surprised and excited.

So i spent the lat two days filling out the application form. Writing the essay. Trying my best to give the best of me.

And today, i was so nervous preparing myself to be brave enough to tell my desire to my supervisors. My direct supervisor strongly supported me to apply. Sadly, the upper supervisor disagreed

Sad. I know.

So i lost a little bit of appetite.

I called my closest friends but damn! none of them answered. i tried to console myself. i went out walking just to calm my head. felt like i need to punch someone or something.

dysfunctional state i was.

ok. i tried to console myself. after all, nobody’s willing to cheer you up rather than you yourself.

i mean, c’mon…i meet all the requirements! huh…

pasti ada hikmahnya. semua ada hikmahnya. keep up the good hope, dew.

prepare sharper armor. prepare stronger shield. prepare better strategy.

jika satu pintu tertutup, seribu pintu lain terbuka.

jika strategi ini gagal, kita ganti strategi lain. siapapun bisa menolakku, bisa mencoba menjatuhkanku, tapi mereka takkan bisa memadamkan semangatku. semakin keras arus menghambatku, semakin kuat aku bertahan. semakin dalam aku terjatuh, semakin tinggi aku kan berdiri lagi.

aku takkan patah. aku takkan patah. aku takkan goyah.

tetap semangat dew. masi ada pintu-pintu yang lain. ayo siapkan senjata dahulu. asah lagi. lalu kita berperang!